Jul 27 2011
This weekend I will be turning 40. I guess this is midlife (ish) and I’m due for some sort of a crisis. I’d love to use that as an excuse to put pink streaks in my hair, but I’m job hunting and that might not go over so well. So, I’ll put that on hold. I can’t think of any other way to celebrate the crisis, but I guess I’m supposed to evaluate my life so far. Here goes.
Where am I in life at 40? Am I where I planned on being? On paper, I don’t think it looks too good. I’m unemployed (ish), I weigh more than I would like, I drive a really old car, my clothes aren’t very stylish, etc. Why then am I more centered and happy than I clearly should be? I mean it really doesn’t make sense, but it is true. My employment issues are certainly real, but I am so excited about becoming a teacher that I look forward to each step in the process. Yes, even if that means subbing for another semester until I find the right place. I learn so much from each day in a classroom that how could I possibly dread it? My weight/unfit issues have driven me to start 30 Days of Moving to keep me on track. In the meantime, I have so enjoyed the community of friends who have joined the endeavor! What a gift that I didn’t even expect! My really old car is “there” for me — it fits all my kids plus a friend, gets decent gas mileage, and I never have to worry about someone stealing it My clothes are comfortable and I live in a city where style is all about feeling good, not jumping on each latest trend. So, I’m happy with the “look”. So, overall, things are not perfect, but there is happiness in each imperfect part of my life. I think a major part of how I’m able to see all of this is my faith. I don’t speak often publicly about my faith, but if you know me well you know how important it is to me. I truly, deeply believe that you are not given anything that you cannot handle. I also think that sometimes you have to have patience with life’s hardships so that you can finally see the blessing that they give you.
So, to celebrate my big 4-0 I plan on finally doing SUP and watching my daughter perform with her rock band camp friends. I may sneak some Mexican food in there somewhere, too